Another New Begining

I started a new job back the first part of May and as life would have it sometimes things are not what you think they are going to be.  I have been in a place of transition, again.  Some days I feel like I am to old for this, but as I talk to my friends who are older than me, I realize the place I would like to get to doesn't exist.  That place without the changes that shake your confidence, trouble your mind and cause you to question again why you are here and where you are going.  It is just an on going part of the journey. Today I got up and started over... again.


I remember a commercial one time that said,  "Today is the first day of the rest of your life, start it right with..."  I don't remember what the product was, but the concept has never left me.  I have had many, starting over places in my life and some have entailed hard decisions that I have had to make to move on.  Others have just been a case of laziness stealing my time and energy and having to get up and get moving again or writing again or just living again.  

Lately I have felt so out of my place.  Out of sync with me.  That is a strange and scary place to be, because you can get lost in the crowd of your own life.  You can hide yourself from others until you can't even find yourself anymore.  Strange..this place I have been.  But today is the first day of the rest of my life and I have started it with some scripture, some yoga and exercise, and a healthy breakfast.  Small steps, but even small steps will eventually move you from one place to another.  


 Sometimes we leave the very things that give us life and pick up weights we were not even meant to carry.  We trudge along and can't look up for fear of what we might see.  I cannot live in this place.  I cannot give up those things I have learned and go back to not knowing,  so others who can live here in peace may have to stay, but as for me,  I have to get back on my path.  I have to know that I am doing what I was put here to do.  Yes, I still have to work my job, so 7 1/2 hours of the day I will be doing what I have to do to get my pay check at the end of the week... The real me will be back on the right path. My mind will be gleaning words and thoughts that it will later weave into poems and prose.  My spirit will be looking for God and finding Him in sometimes the most unlikely places.  Deep breath... Exhale... Live!!!